Sunday, December 13, 2009 | 5:36 PM

viva la vida,death and all his friends.

they're charging,in a war, towards

nothing but death.serve them right for

fighting with a useless sword(bunga mangga).

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Wednesday, December 9, 2009 | 4:07 PM

| 2:44 PM

i havent been updating..
because i've been to busy lately,
trying to catch up with life after th long
days i'v spent at obs camp.
obs was awesome.
i met and made friends with kids from the central side of this island
i kayaked aroundd ubin's perimeter,in a tri-yak,thru the eye of the storm.
i went trekking to chek jawa and was awestruck by its beauty.
i got bitten repetitively by sand flies and mosquitoes.
and most importantly..
i learnt to let go,leave the memories back at camp II as my instructor Fong had reminded us to do so,
hoping tht any senses of nostalgia would not come back,creeping to my mind.i no longer feel the need
to be melancholic over suh great memories which are long over and come only once in our lifetime.

i no longer feel the need to have a crush on the ultimate perfect guy in my world cause even if i do,
i had always felt that something or someone else was missingin my heart ;tht somehow caused a discomfort
for some reason but one in particular was because i felt lonely not knowing whom or what was missing still
(besides th person i love)despite being head over heels.isnt someone whose in love spose to feel euphoric,
as though she has jumped over th moon or smth?but why am i not?...
but then,i soon figured out what was missing,just recently.
i went to a forum held at th islamic hub in bradell.
the ustazah said smth like(forgive me for my mistakes,this is a part of wht i remmbered of her speech)
''for everything you lust,like,love or admire, you have to love,lust,like or admire Allah swt first
before everything;be it th person is ur boyfriend/husband/mum/bestfriend.you have to make
him your first priority in th lifetime God has offered you.There was this story ,frm th Holy Al-Quraan,
(if im not wrong in one of the verses in Al-Baqarah),of a kind and handsome Muslim man. Every or most
women were afterhim ,lust,love or admired him.he soon got married to this particular lady and loved her so. Then came
the night after their wedding.someone came to him ,and acknowledged him tht there was a war
the day after,unfortunately.he could have been selfish and stayed tht period of time which was after th wedding,
to spend all the time in th world with his beloved wife.
but no,he didnt.he was thoughtful and he opt fot th war instead.he made sacrifices.he said tht he wanted
to do something better for God and not for himself.during tht particular war,he died(mati syahid),but he died in th hands of th
Almighty Allah swt.''
may God bless tht man.
i thought to myself..
''Good gracious.i may have had tonnes of crushes,and then found it difficult to confessed to them but
i havent even confessed to the one and only,Him(God,Allah swt) before,in my whole life! such simple things to do!
i was selfish,and had thought only abt myslf.it was so simple to confess to Him,he was my creator;
it was Him whom felt me-felt my heartbeat raced or skipped a beat and tht i was breathless because of
tht particular guy which i shall not mention here;
yet i had forgotten abt Him.why?because i was to busy,thinking abt some useless guy out thre.
oh im such a moron.He was thre all along but i was completely unaware until somebody opened up my heart and made me realised.''
Thanks to tht ustazah..

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Saturday, November 28, 2009 | 4:10 AM

oh boy.
could it get any worse than this?
what took you so long to find me?
when you finally did,
you have not one iota in th universe tht
i was right there all along;
THERE,
right behind you,trailing afer your steps
living and leading life as you did,
breathing your air.
and invading your space without your consent.
yes,i'v gathered all my nerve & guts in doing so
but it seemed tht all my efforts were in vain.
cause you could never see me or feel for my
existence in tht cold,tiny heart of yours.
and sometimes you do make me wonder
whether im always
INVISIBLE
to you & it suck big time knowing tht
i am.
or that you're
HEARTLESS
forget abt tht cold tiny heart of yours.
you dont even own one.

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Thursday, November 26, 2009 | 7:25 PM

oh great.
my hair suck and on monday im spose to
bear with th ugliness to obs.

Monday, November 23, 2009 | 4:24 AM

muzzafar<3

geee:D can-deed!

godammned!

my haircutt is like freaking short.

the other day,when i took bus 17 over to lylie's,

this woman whom sort of look tomboyish,with
a boyish haircut purposely got off her back seat
way before her stop,waiting at th exit,where
i was standing,due to th lack of seats.
she looked back ,eyeing me continuously.

what does she take me for?a real lesbo?

even if i were one,i wouldnt have been availabled

for her.so sorry lah.

and talkin abt haircutts,i am head over heels with

tht hairdresser's style.tight fitting,slightly short skinnies

tht pointed old-schoooled shoes

im referring to tht hairdresser you'v see above,

cutting lylie's hair.and grirlfriend' has gotten herself

a lovely bob.awesome.

there was this baby boy whom was also eyeing me.

his name was muzzafar.he kept turning around and playing

with me while i was waiting for th queen to get her hair done.

oh well,he must have been having a crush on me!

i told him he was flirtatious for a two yr-old,in baby language

but it sorta came out,all muddled up in jupiter martian language

instead.oh well,at least i tried.

then he laughed.

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caddie-rubbidium

BUBBLEGUMMERS♥

im calling out:hola mi amigoes.mi nombre es hasheemah

LETS ROCK HARD !

!OUT!you go,within a blink of an eyeClick Here .
everyday,passerby-s come and go out of my blog just like tht-
its a sad thing tht they dnt hv the guts to leave me smth NICE at the tagboard to make me smile
btw,good luck finding ur way to the tagboard.u'll need it:}
xoxoxoxoxohasheemah.gigglesxoxoxoxoxo
♥ i like tht chinese guy

PEACE OUT

GROOVY IS FOR HIPPIES.
who am i,really?
im the dreamer you'l catch staring into th great unknown,in deep wonders about the plain white walls which stood in front of me
im a failure when it comes to romance & homework
th girl whose into pop art and colours
and im just me and noone else,really.

Where is the love

Oh God,the Almighty.tell me.where has all th love gone to?
did it got sucked into the massive black hole somewhere on planet earth?
had all th love been squished,chucked and thrown into a corner,
so tht it will be long forgotten or would only be reminisced as a great nostalgia
did it just choose to disappear,having apathy to mankind's cruelty & existence?
or it no longer feel belonged to lives of empty souls?
if You're somewhere out there,
do hear me
mercy us for we have lacked something as exquisite as love
do answer my prayers
as we are in a dire need for the love which we had lose and ought to regain back
give me,especially, a miracle
for the love i'v been searching and had long awaited for...
''i know You're somewhere out there...''
originally by nhgiggs

NHG's very own bulletin board

upcoming events

-ncc sea challenge quest
-OBS(?not confirmed)
-millenia institute in 2011(AMIN,God bless me please!)
-$228 for new handphone
-ncc final camp,in school(oh what a bore!)
-new moon

♥nhg's mini museum♥

miracle list♥

+if only a mega huge fairy godmother would pop out on the face of the earth and sprinkle some 'happy' and 'war away' magic dust...
♥world peace
+converse high cuts
♥become spf's ncc sea unit p.t.i instructor
+go on an all expense paid shopping spree
♥go california
+pass with flying cows for my exams
♥see the beauties of the world
+go millenia institute in 2011
♥internship at teen vogue/USA seventeen mag
(be it model,designer,camerawoman,fashion journalist or fashion advisor)
+a waterproof camera so i can take with me under the sea
♥a candy shop all to myself
+run in a marathon
♥become an athlete?
+a popular pop art artist

theres bo such tings as tagboards in my life♥

BLEED IT OUT

notes of my own

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